The emotions... The anger... The heart break... The sadness... The overwhelming sense of feeling guilty.... Guilty that I did something wrong... what if... I could of stoped it... what if... I didn't carry Caleb to and from the car... what if... I wouldn't of worked out in the yard that weekend... What if... I didn't bug the doctors to get up and go to the bathroom... what if... I would of just stayed in bed upside down.
What IF!
Remember this was out of your hands! God is with you and your precious infant! I will continue to pray for your family!
ReplyDeleteIt is not your fault. This is God's plan, agree with it or not. I had my boys at 24w, 2d and only one survived. I'm not angry anymore because I realize that my son Keenan was on this Earth to get my husband and I close to God. He did that in his 13 days, and was taken back home. He, and his older brother Aiden, are watching over our Evan, making sure that he gets to come home soon, HEALTHY. Enjoy being a Mother to the strongest little being in this crazy world! MPs are the strongest, even stronger than body builders!!
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